Current Mood: Wretched Pain

As of today....I didn't feel tired today when I woke up for school..knowing the fact that I'm always up so early...Guess that's just how bad my insomnia is...1st hour I might say was really relaxing, the most relaxing I've ever felt, and had a bit of some fun as well. So I liked it. 2nd hour was alright...=/ We ended up starting a new project with the stupid art line krap that I'm not so good at...what is up with tracing and straight lines? That always messes me up, it's like...TOO perfect lmao. It's just bothering me. I'm not so good with patterns and creative bright colors whatsoever. So this time, I'm just gonna let it go, even though I told myself that I would try hard and not let that happen but it happened T_T I hope it won't be like that all throughout...OR I WONT WIN ANYTHING AT THE FAIR ='[ *SNIFF SNIFF* 3rd hour was disappointing for me since I didn't do so well on my first math quiz of the semester...This week's report isn't gonna look so well for the math section =/...I tried my best too..like Idk wth happened...I almost cried ...idk!!! 4th hour was alright too, it wasn't too stressful, so far, I probably like 1st and 4th block the most and the 2nd and then 3rd...freakin' math I WAS good at math the most, but agh look at me now! In a college level class and can't even freakin' make it! So disappointed...:( Oh yeah, and did I mention that I HATE it whenever people stand up to walk and get their stuff from somewhere else then walk by and take like a freakin 3 MINUTE GLANCE at my artwork (in like...a criticizing way...like for example: "yeah hahaha look at her i just wanna see what she can do" kinda thing) & then when they walk back to their desk they do the same damn thing AGAIN and I'm like "Wtf...you know that I know you're watching me right?" Everytime that happens I can feel it because when I try to focus on the artwork I get REALLY into it, then when I stop, it's because of a 'DISTRACTION'. You know, kinda like when you're having a really good dream, and then your mom or somebody wakes you up then ruins your good dream. I know I'm harsh, but give me some room people. I mean, seriously? I don't mind if you're staring to admire, just as long as you don't stare to criticize. Sheesh. But currently... I'm...in wretched pain at the moment, I'm trying to find my inner self so I can calm down...and just be determined and inspired to do things like I usually do rather than worrying about things so much. I have so much shit going on right now...Lets see here...the ACT coming up...Wanna do my best as well, AP exam for Calculus this semester as well, 2 art classes I wanna do my best in...and then my relationship shit..I kinda feel like I wanna drop the relationship I really do. It's sorta getting in my way and it's bothering me. I hope that the guy I like right now is AT WORK...rather than ignoring the txt messages that I'm sending =/ Because then that would suck ass. Sorry for the language T_T...That reminds me, I still haven't even wrote down the new definitions for my Vocab words this week for English today..Well gotta go do that now...Updates either later tonight or tomorrow...Peace.