I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
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♥ Sunday, August 21, 2011
My Complicate Life ♥
"Finding my inner beauty"
So...I haven't updated or blogged for awhile now. Almost approximately 4 months to be exact. It felt like it's been longer. I haven't been feeling up to blogging in those past 4 months but now that today is the day before I start college, I want to be able to talk about my feelings towards everything and what I've been up to lately. So I'm officially nervous as hell and I've been nervous since yesterday morning ever since I woke up. No one's nerve-wrecking feeling is as worse as mine. I get horribly nervous when events like this come up in my life. But I'll do whatever it takes for me to start this new journey, fresh and happy.
I've kinda realized something today ... well okay maybe not exactly today but it's always been bothering me in the back of my mind sometimes. For a person like me who's gone through so much backstabbing and rejections by guys throughout my life because I'm "not good looking enough", we tend to dwell upon this question a lot. ..."Why are good looking people so hard to get? Or even get along with for that matter?" Obviously this question doesn't apply to everyone because not every guy is a shallow douchebag and not every gorgeous or pretty looking girl is a rude bitch. But I've actually found it sooo hard for me to get along with the most pretty looking girls, and most of it is because either girls revolve themselves around jealousy or the fact that we have major differences, even though that doesn't mean we still can't talk...right? It's so confusing.
Then lets go to the guys... like seriously? I'm pretty sure and positive that EVERY single girl in this world has fallen or really liked a super good looking guy and have always wanted them to be their bf because to them, that guy is like ...almost literally their dream guy. But hey, they are so fucking hard to get because --in my experiences, we hardly have anything in common, something "worth" wanting or something we really want is never easy to get (this actually is a valid reason just in general not just certain experiences), some of them are douchebags who just want a good looking, sexy girl that matches their taste, their personality sucks... or they are just HARD to get!! <-- When girls say that, it really does hurt them sometimes, but hey, life is gonna always be unfair and people will always have their own preferences. I just really hate guys that don't date girls "out of their league" ...That is so shallow. I'm sure that if this world ever got a chance to be able to build robot boyfriends or girlfriends perhaps...in the future, like in Absolute Boyfriend/Zettai Kareshi...then I'm sure a lot of people would actually take certain measures and take that risk lol.