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The Girl


About Me::.
name:: Sophitia
bday:: 3/27
height:: 157cm
weight:: 45kg
ethnicity:: Asian/Viet&proud!
place:: Kansas
Other::
I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff, I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/. I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol. People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage & confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know. My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time, but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]

Email : Ask me, maybe i'll give it 2 you.

Cravings


LOVES

-Pandas♥
-Hello Kitty(Sanrio!)
-My Cousin
-Traveling -Asian Music
-Asian horror movies
-Asian dramas
-FOOD (esp. asian food)
-Siberian huskies<3
-Turkish Angoras<3
-BaBu Bear(morning glory!)
-Writing Novels
-Blogging
-Drawing
-SoBe
-Playing diabolo
-Videogames
-Final Fantasy
-Kingdom Hearts
-Singing
-Modeling
-Shopping!!(esp. w/ cousin!)
-Fall&Winter
-Fashion
-Makeup
-Sweets
-Fobby Stuff ^_^
-Ulzzangs&UlzzangStyle!
-My Buddies
-Helping ppl out
-Anime;Vampire Knight<3
-Manga

DISLIKES
-Liars
-Insects
-Dolls
-Fakers/posers
-Rude, disrespectful ppl
-Ppl who start drama
-Gossipers
-'know-it-alls'
-Show offs
-Stuck ups
-Bossy ppl
-Racist ppl/Racism
-Discrimination
-Judgemental ppl
-Narrow-minded ppl
-Haterz
-Copycatters
-Nosy Ppl
-Preps&those 'kind' of girls
-Balloons
-Loud noises
-Cramped places
-The Dark

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Awsum Links! & MY LINKS
Memories


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Designer: Agnes
Base Code: Tammy
Image: Enakei
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NOTE**: I DO NOT OWN THE ICONS THAT ARE ON EACH OF MY POSTS, THE ICONS ARE CREDITED TO THEIR RIGHTFUL OWNERS, THANK YOU [CREDITS TO: K-pop Icons]


Saturday, July 31, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"I feel intimidated more than ever in my entire life..."

Dayuuumm I just realized that I haven't done this in awhile, like ACTUAL blogging. Soooo now it feels weird but it feels off because I left it off for so long. Anywayy I just got back home from a longggg day, we went to the Cowley County Fairground in Winfield...and the rides were pretty fun, but then it got WAY too crowded. There were a ton of cute guys crawling around, but there were sluts too :/ of course. This one chick wore this SUPER short skirt that was all the way up to her ass and I was like ..."wtf was she thinking" & HAHAHAHA don't be thinking that I'm jealous just b/c she's getting all the attention because I can get attention my OWN way and I don't have to dress like a skank to do it! It's called charm? GEEZ. I think people there in Winfield are kinda racist too T_T I mean my brother and I went on this ride and the dude that was in charge of starting the ride ONLY came up to us and was like "When the ride is done....don't open this until I come over" and we both nodded our heads and I was like "WTF...was that?! Is it because we're Asians and you think we don't understand english well??" It was kinda weird, odd and off at the same time because he only said it to us....Winfield is the countryside of Kansas and mainly 95% of the population there are mostly WHITE people only. So I 5% don't blame them, but still.
I remember my dad telling me about the story of his first time taking his driver's test when he got over in america after about like a month or two...and the beginning where the DMV examiner asks you to turn on your turning signals, my dad didn't do it because he couldn't understand, she went over and then my dad rolled down the window and then she/he repeated and he still didn't do it, so then the person got angry and then told my dad to go back home and learn some english then left....WTF what kind of attitude is that?!
That reminds me, I was kinda mad at the guy who worked with the rides on our first ride for being rude,
I was about to tell his ass off like I wanted to with the lady at the mall with my mom and stuff but I didn't because we went there with my mom's friend and there were a lot of people (well i didn't really care about that) but I mainly didn't do it because I didn't wanna get kicked out and ruin everything and then piss my dad off and put everyone else in a bad mood. This sucks I need to learn to stand up and say something,....Ugh my niceness..



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Thursday, July 29, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"You're just jealous because I'm crazy beautiful"

So I PASSED MY DRIVERS TEST!!! YAYY. Good day todayy. Now I'm sitting here in the living room watching Fact or Faked: Paranormal Files. All new is coming up next which is why I am waiting for it :D :D :D Paha I'm suchaaa nerdd.

& I realized I haven't been updating on my blog much, guess I'm just lazy and what not. So anywayyy there are so many Korean wannabe people...ugh this one that's talking to my best friend is SOOO annoying. >.< I'm not trying to be mean but it feels like I've been allergic to annoyance since I keep sneezing whenever I'm annoyed -____- Bleh whatever, I shouldn't let those wannabes ruin Kpop in my eyes!! >:D



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Wednesday, July 28, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"All you need is understanding"

At last my parents finally understood me. I have to thank my mom today for standing by my side and still believing in me after what happened :/ I don't wanna talk about it though. Therefore I will do my best for tomorrow after the appointment. :)



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Tuesday, July 27, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"The things I don't wanna say or think are running through my mind"

Please send down a guardian angel to bring me hope. please.



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Monday, July 26, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"Where's your charisma?"

Wow, people who add people and then delete them are stupid. If you're gonna delete me then why did you add me in the first place?!?!?! Does it matter if we never talk? Thats your problem!! Talk to me!! STUPID. Since you're the one who added me, talk to me!! DUMBASS. I hate people like that. Then later on, they realize I'm a kool & nice person then add me. Watch me be famous one day then you'll be like "oooops" like an idiot! Sheesh, honestly I think they're just jealous, kpop wannabe's, don't be jealous cuz I'm an oriental asian :) haha jk.

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**EDIT**

SOOO Obviously...it's not just me who's the only asian that HATES it when white people or people of other race try to act/pretend like they're asian when they're not....STICK TO UR OWN STUFF PEOPLE. PLEASE.



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My Complicate Life ♥

"What is this pride?"

I just gotta believe! Gotta stand up for what I believe in, and what I stand for. Each one of us lives on this planet to serve a purpose and we may not be better than others in a certain matter...BUT we gotta find our own purpose on this world.



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Sunday, July 25, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"It's been 9 years don't ruin this for me"

Claim people my ass. I claim Kpop big time :D :D I've been listening to Jpop & Kpop for 9 years now, ever since in 4th grade till now, the reason is because of my half older bro & sis. So I am surely a pro xP
Yesterday the foodnetwork channel discriminated against asians obviously, I was watching the Cake challenge but it was the landscape challenge. I'm not favoring Asians because I'm just following as to how I see this, but it was obvious that the asian dude's landscape should've won and was way better because his landscape was WAY more complex compared to the other team's. Honestly, I'm in ceramics and I'm pretty good with art and I could say that I am able to do the same American Dream landscape as they did because it all looked pretty simple to me. Sorry to say :/
& one of the judges were like "I can't seem to rap my head around it blah blah blahhh" After he said that I just discriminated him and blew him up inside my head because he obviously discriminated against the Asian dude. The other team ended up winning because it "portrayed the American Dream" American dream my ass.
If discriminating is what you call the American Dream, then you've got alot to learn.



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Friday, July 23, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"I've grown older, stronger, and wiser"

This must be one of the biggest accomplishments of my life! I feel like I've learned so much..just by following my heart...and listening and doing to what I think is right. Because of how much I've rebelled against my parents..I've learned SO much more than EVER. I'm not gonna try and screw up as much as I did my past 17 years. I feel like I've grown so much wiser after not crying over stupid boys and realizing that at this age and time, these boys are just gonna want me for stupid stuff...for show, ...for my body blah blah blah, they're not gonna want committment! Why did I ever want committment in the first place? BLEH. I'm stupid! Well WAS! I learned to stand up for myself now...after getting rid of those two who LIED to me. Them bastards, I'm not letting anyone get in my way, my life has already made that turn and I'm not gonna reverse and go back down the old road which would've eventually led me to a DEATH path. Being popular huh? Yeah, that's not gonna matter anymore in a couple of years!!! People are just people, they're all going to use you eventually!! You're gonna get backstabbed, you're gonna run into the biggest shocks of your life! Your life will slowly change! Popularity is nothing, especially when you're not good at something and isn't gonna do something about your own life!!! Everything happens for a reason!! AND even if you ARE popular it's gonna have to be for something reasonable and successful!! I'm not throwing my life away nor am I gonna trash it because of dumb people on this world!! I WILL LIVE ON. I feel so great telling people off for once and standing up for myself. I feel like I have to protect my own pride!! I feel like I've grown older, stronger and wiser and it's gonna  continue to be that way. I promise myself that.



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Thursday, July 22, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"Life could be simple...but it's not...and it doesn't even make sense!"

My parents are soooo right...how come all the bad guys in this world NEVER die but the good ones always die? James did nothing to deserve to die so early in his life. My big bro's friend...that he lived with...died in a motorcycle accident...he was the nicest guy ever and he was also kind, he never did anything bad never did drugs or any of that stuff. Now he's gone. When there are other guys out there that people should kill or God should I say....like my dad's boss who tried to humiliate my dad and ruin his life. He's an evil white trash. He's gotten like heart attacks many times but hasn't even died yet, I think he deserves to die after what all he did to my dad, but NOOO God likes to kill the innocent ones :/ that sounded harsh. Okay, PEOPLE. Grrrr. >.< He kicked my dad down and now he's not on supervisor level anymore, fuckin' good for nothing white trash. If I had the chance to, without getting into trouble, I would've killed him myself, with OUR Katana. With Honor & Pride. I'd hang the katana up on my wall afterwards.



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Wednesday, July 21, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"Need to stay strong & find that inspiration again"

I'll do it. I know it's not gonna be easy at all, and it's gonna be a long hard road...but I'll do my best to make it. I've got my mind set on it, I don't think I should date anymore for that matter, it's time to find back that inspiration and fight back with all my might .... I gotta do this. I MUST. I have to grab it and win!!! I might've hit the jackpot today after the volunteering thing and talking to the professor during the car ride...he's gonna help me. This is it.



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Tuesday, July 20, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"Meeting new people can make your day"

OMFG this dude is soooo freakin dumb and retarded!!! He acts and treats me like a lil kid who doesn't know anything when he's only 2 years older than me, and people who are older than you doesn't mean that they're necessarily smarter or know more, HE PISSES ME OFF. He acts like a know-it-all and like a smartass but then he asks me what this and that means!!! WTH! SERIOUSLY. How can you not know Dr. G? How can you not know what a pedometer is!!! UGH THIS DUDE. I'll strangle him.



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Monday, July 19, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"Can't get rid of the image of you"

Well...it hasn't been long...AT ALL since I've last talked to them. It'd be nice to have a one year break from them, I just wanna see how long they can go without me, which I'm sure they'd have no problem of forgetting about me. I'm in the process of healing and I don't wanna go back =/ BUT THEIR IMAGE still comes into my head....That damn quote is right, it takes seconds to know somebody but one hell of a long time to forget them!!! UGH. I don't wanna end up hating them, which I think I should for the best anyway. I'm ready to move on....I'm gonna go back to asian guys now :D :D :D They've been catching my attention latelyyyy.



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Saturday, July 17, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"Moving on without you"

UGH I CAN'T PARK WORTH SHIT!!! I'm soo angry and disappointed about that :/ Dear lorddd. Ughhh. It's almost time for my test and enrollment .....NOOOOO!!!



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Friday, July 16, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

    
"Finding hope; this is one big mission that I must complete"

So after looking back at the kpop world and realizing how sooo many people and not just netizens bash on kpop groups or like solo artists or something, I gotta put my act together and prove other people wrong as well!!! After seeing Son Dam Bi come back again on today's performance with much better vocals and seeing her sing more...made me realize that she did her best to stand up to what everyone else was judging her for. People just need to back off sometimes, stop giving these people sucha hard time when they're celebrities, they're humans too!! No one's perfect, Son dam bi and the other artists took their time and worked on their albums and stuff to perfect it, knowing their schedule I'm sure they get tired 2x as much as we do knowing how hard and how far they've made it. How would you like it if you just made your debut and everyone was bashing on you, esp when you know you've worked hard, and have gotten this far WITH a packed schedule and hardly getting any sleep at all?? Yeah you'd feel pressurred and like SHIT. People, have a heart okay?!?! GAAWWWD.

& now...I realize I'm up for the biggest competition this year....I must do it...I must succeed!!





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Thursday, July 15, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"You! Shut the hell up!"

OH. MY. GAWD. This kid I swear!!! Ughhh!! I never knew he was gonna be this annoying!!! I mean, he's like a combination of rude, annoying, dumb, and just plain retarded!!! I'm cursed!!! Curse my niceness & wanting to be friendly towards people :/ look what happens now?! First I get stomped ALL over and now this kid is bothering the shit outta me!! First off, who is he to tell me that I should be proud of my country? If I've had my own experiences and shit, WHICH I SHOULD know myself, then he should leave me the fuck alone, it's not like I'm a big disgrace in the entire country ya know!! UGH then he's just pissing the fuck outta me because he reminds me of my dumbass ex that I dated for 6 nasty months!! Never going back there again. hahahaha. ANYWAY. He doesn't even know what dramas are??? WTH seriously? Common sense. "I'm not an internet video kinda guy" yeah well you're hella lame. Go play your games and get fat. (omg I'm so mean >.<) Sorry I'm just kinda mad right now. Who the fuck is he to tell me "you have to conquer your fears" NO DIP!!! I know that! He makes me sound like I'm just a little kid who's just learning things when in reality, I'm sure I know one hell of a lot more than that bastard! He makes me feel dumb, he makes me sound dumb, I'ma keep playing his ass back and show him who's smart around here!! I'm in the lead and I know what I'm doing. I'm smarter than him!!!!! UGHHH!!!! PIECE O SHIT.




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My Complicate Life ♥

"We're now playing the Liar Game"

Looks like the movie won't be subbed till for awhile :( Just when I got freakin' addicted too...then saw the trailer and went ballistic since it looked REALLY good. I kinda freaked out when I saw Akiyama leave the room, leaving behind Nao. Fukunaga always entertains me lol, I laughed along with him whenever he laughs it's just too bad he gets greedy though =/ Sometimes you think he's on their side sometimes he's just a greedy guy wanting money.



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Wednesday, July 14, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"Moving on, on my own"

So it seems to me that Liar Game is starting to change my perspective/view towards life, I love that show!!! UGH!!



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Tuesday, July 13, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"Thanks for driving me into this insane hole of pain"

I'm just here to say goodbye, goodbye to the two of them. I'm done with being hurt, I don't know what I'm gonna do and don't know what to do at this moment in time, I know I have to move on. But is this the way that I should be treated? I've ran into sooo much bad luck lately...I just feel hopeless & pathetic. THANKS A LOT. Now, I'm really starting to doubt the fact that I will even pass my driving test next week =/

Those bastards.



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Monday, July 12, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

Agh omg wtf, this is pissing me off so much. " *insert title of song here* cannot be played on this ipod" Damn you Apple. Screw iTunes.



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My Complicate Life ♥

"Damn you Apple products!!!"


I can't believe after from wanting the iPod Touch for sooo long that I'd end up regretting the fact that I got it. =/ I should've freakin' checked and see what all you had to do on it before I decided to buy it. WTF lesson learned this time. 5 years later, I'll save up my money and buy myself another god damn mp3 player thats worth more (not money/price wise) and works better!!! Apple can go to hell, why the hell do you put pressure and stress in our lives just by making us download iTunes in order to put the stuff onto our fuckin' iPods? Fuckin' piece of shit. Duuuude, no wonder why I never saw Apple products as anything really. Sorry to say!! Your iPods may be "cool" or whatever!! But I'd rather prefer the Zen mp3 that stopped working (because I was careless) on me!! THANK YA VERY MUCH. I think I'm gonna save money and have that one fixed? But nahh...it's not even enough space for me, which was why I upgraded. UGH fuckin' APPLE...Really? iTunes? REALLY? With the other mp3s I could just simply drag my damn stuff and ACTUALLY move my OWN videos like a piece of cake!! FUCK YOU and YOUR PRODUCTS.

Sorry for that :)
But Apple just sucks.
I'm willing to deal with it though since my dad was thoughtful enough to buy it for me.



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Sunday, July 11, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"You can always find hope across the beautiful aurora"

SORRY but I only date guys who will prove their love to me!!! :)



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My Complicate Life ♥

"Hmph, & I thought girls were bad, but the guys I know, just reached a whole new level"

WOW. Just WOW. The guys I know & like are SOO DUMB & stupid. It just sucks & it makes you wanna think what they're gonna do next, I don't think they should talk to me till they grow up =/ This shit is just getting uberly ridiculous that it leaves me speechless and all I wanna do is just bash on them. Fuck boys.



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Saturday, July 10, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"Back Home once again"

Sooo I'm soo glad to finally be back home once again. There's been like a dark and a bright side to my trip overall. I got sick during the trip and ended up looking like shit for a couple of days. On the bright side, I bought a whole buncha kool and neato stuff...I just can't believe I ended up buying him a gift...oh well -___- I'm just glad to be back home again anyway. I missed laying on bed and just expressing myself on this blog lol and everything else really. I was just OCD-ing at the hotel and being super paranoid every second and it was starting to get on my nerves. & after like what? 2-3 years of waiting, I FINALLY got a new cell with my own ringtones and that I can finally text and call unlimited LOL. I'm happy, and then I'm gonna be ordering my iPod touch tomorrow probably. I'm much more happier today since I haven't been talking to him for awhile :) Been thinking ahead you know? Anyway peace.



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Wednesday, July 7, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"You obviously don't understand how I feel at all"

I feel so freakin' asian & I can't believe I bought him something too BLEH BLEH BLEH. I'm starting to dislike him, not as much as I hate myself right now. WHATEVER lol.



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Tuesday, July 6, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"Leave me be"

BLAH. Really? Today was all bad luckkkk so was last night. I freakin got food poisoning!!! & I Kindaaa miss home!!! :( And seriously?!? Do I always gotta have a kpop song(s) to remind me of things?? Ugh I feel pathetic lol and hopeless. 2PM - Without U --> "Everything happens for a reason" YEAH WHY DIDN'T I THINK OF THAT?!?! xD I need to freakin' remember thaaaatttt. & we've eaten at the same restaurant 4 times lmaooo. Dallas Day 4.



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Monday, July 5, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"I hate having to mentally deal with the BS"

GAWWWDDD. Someone just get a gun and shoot me in the head or in the mouth already!!! Day 3 in Dallas btw.



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Saturday, July 3, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

It's Over.



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My Complicate Life ♥

"Travel and forget all your worries and scars from yesterday"

Wow talk about a long ride to Dallas ughhh just glad but then not glad that it wasn't Houston. Today we went to go eat at Bistro B, went to the Saigon Mall, went into the Hello Kitty store and NOBODY was playing!!! Eeek before I walked into the store, I KNEW and sensed that it was gonna be an asian song playing LOL. xD I'm gooood. Then we went to wal-mart and now I'm here. Bleh long day, AND I've decided to make a very wise decision to just be best friends with him. Gonna buy something for our friendship which I think is best. He doesn't like me like that so yeah, he's pretty much made up his mind on her. I'm gonna call her JoJo because I was listening to SHINee's Jojo when it made me realize the truth. So yeah haha.



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Friday, July 2, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"Honestly...my heart still aches every time I think about it..."

Hoping and wishing that the pain would go away....Other than that I'm doing fine I guess. I just wanna leeeaavee, I'm glad to be leaving tomorrow though. Wish me the best of luck I just can't wait! I gotta get some rest now though. LATERS!



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My Complicate Life ♥

"I realized, I'm just all too good for this *chuckle*"

Pahahahahaha wth. Why am I so worried about all of this, why is my heart beating, why am I getting jealous, why am I getting all worked up again?! When I told myself not to, I'm sooo ready to leave. I knew this was gonna happen, I KNEW he went there because of her, he's not gonna have the best of both worlds sorry! If he wants to talk I'll talk, but other than that, hahahaha, you can kiss your "other lover" goodbye!! His status on facebook is so ridiculous right now it made me just wanna laugh and gag everytime I read it! Pahaha, I'm wayyy too good for him and all this shit. HAHAHA ONE MORE DAY! Why am I soo good at guessing? This is some dumb and lame shit. I'm done! SOOO THROUGH with this!!! Don't even bother talkin' to me dude!



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Thursday, July 1, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"Damn you Facebook Newsfeed"

Boooo this sucks. I wish I was gone already so that I won't have to check back on facebook like I have no life ...like right now xD I'm busy packing and all but krap I keep seeing his statuses and stuff on Newsfeed! BOTH OF THEM. Ugh. Anywayyy, I'm ready to leave leave leave! Once I come back I'm gonna be hanging with my peeps! END OF STORY LOL.

(He made it to Sydney -____-)



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