I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
NOTE**: I DO NOT OWN THE ICONS THAT ARE ON EACH OF MY POSTS, THE ICONS ARE CREDITED TO THEIR RIGHTFUL OWNERS, THANK YOU [CREDITS TO: K-pop Icons]
♥ Thursday, October 28, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"He makes me feel like no other"
SOOOOO there's this guy....he's really cute....'cause I've nearly given up on the other guys :/
Although he lives in a different state....a state that I freakin' visited 2 years ago! GRRR. But he makes me happy by just ....thinkin' about him and the stuff he says :)
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3:35 PM
♥ Tuesday, October 26, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"I'll show you competition"
WTF IS THIS?! WHY IS THIS USER JACKIN AND COPYIN OFFA ME?!!?!?! I'm known for making ulzzang and celebrity videos with different themes in them...and now wtf...there's a user copying off of me WAT DA HELL. I'm pissed. It's WAR.
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4:07 PM
♥ Saturday, October 23, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"I want it...I need it..."
So my lust for romance is going insane. TOTALLY INSANE. Sooo I also finished taking the ACT for the third time today....I think I did decently...I really don't think I went up though....The reading and the science section really screwed me up...It's funny how whenever I imagine myself doing good and better than others or just like getting a high score...it NEVER comes out that way....EVER. First time I took the test....I imagined myself getting a 30...but pshhhh I got it wayy lower than that...Not that bad though....Anyway, I should just stop imagining things like Oh Ha Ni in Playful Kiss (LOL, love that drama) and start worrying and thinking about what's really going to happen or...at least don't expect it too much just be prepared is all...but sad thing is...I always imagine like her no matter what...except she's lucky...considering her character in the drama...getting the most good looking and charming guy with a killer smile to marry her!!! UGH that would NEVER happen to me....I am definitely NOT that lucky AT ALL.
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7:59 PM
♥ Thursday, October 21, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"Period of Hell"
AGH. omg so my right arm still hurts from the procedure done on Monday :/ BLEH but it was all worth it now that I got that thing removed. I decided to pick an anime icon this time because I'm currently in school and sorta don't wanna be searching through the net much just in case if my research advisor came over here so yeaaaah. Anyway I'm typing pretty quick right now to get it over with, I really don't feel like being in this class and wish I could go to my best friend's class to talk and hang out ...Art makes everything so much better...how we feel...relieve our stress. ETC ETC.
People need to stop walking by and taking a 'peek' at my screen -___-
All I wanna do is draw, paint, do ceramics while listening to my asian music. Gawd this is sucha drag. Senior year....scholarships...competition...schoolwork....research....I can't wait to graduate and get out ...but I'm not ready for college yet...
Every time I think or hear about college I get a bit intimidated and scared...when I shouldn't be...cuz I'd kinda have more freedom...but we'll see =/ I wanna see my friend that lives in Florida right now 0_0 ...I really miss him grahhhh. ERGH college...I have a feeling it's gonna be really stressful.
&& about the whole competition....in November grrrr!!! I GOTTA DO THIS!!!!
But 2 more days till I retake the ACT for the 3rd time and hopefully my score goes up. Gotta practice hopefully tonight and tomorrow night. Can't believe I'm doing this at the last minute wtf. I always do this,...this time it's not my fault because I have a KRAP load to do....SO NOW it's time to stop worrying and caring about nonsense and useless stuff!!! I'm typing more and pouring out my emotions today because I haven't blogged in a LONG time...well properly anyway...cuz they're all so short and to the point.
Tomorrow the guest will be here to talk about the competition and hopefully I'll get some good advices and put it to use. Hopefully I'm able to do that. && wow...I just noticed something real weird...I can focus more on typing and doing work WITH kpop music in the background AT SCHOOL...but not really at home because I have the tendency to stand up and dance to it when I'm at home lmao 0___0 anyway enough nonsense...I really wanna leave this classs ERRRRGHHHH!!!
Send me a guardian angel to watch over me to give me the strength to go through all of this and make it. I want the money. I need it to prove that I'm capable of doing something in my life and with my life.
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11:14 AM
♥ Tuesday, October 19, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"Dead on the inside"
Now's the time that I really need to prove myself. So much stress, so much pressure, so much competition. When I get competitive, I turn into a conceited bitch. No joke. It's like the Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon side of me!!! lol. >_< It can get real serious. If I don't win anything, almost all of my hopes would be lost :/ no joke about that part either.
After finding out what my ACT score was today for the practice one I took last week,....SO DISAPPOINTED. I felt that I did really well. T_T backfired. Big time. Karma's a bitch. My real test is this saturday, so therefore...I can't go to a birthday party this friday....boo...I hope she won't be mad or upset with me =/ she has an 'odd' personality...that's why I said that. lol....
Just gotta get my act together...I need my motivation, find the inspiration, and do my best.
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3:51 PM
♥ Friday, October 15, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"Let's go through this stress as if it were nothing"
RAWWWRRR GRAAAHHH!!! SO STRESSFUL! I have soooo much krap to do for school and scholarships Dx!!! I HATE THIS URGH! I'm battling for competition, battling for the money, battling for the best!!! I hate how I haven't been updating as much anymore :/ Freakin' school always gets in the way so whateverrrrr.
Who knew this part of my life would be so stressful, at least I still got a few people that care about me. ....MY FAMILY.
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6:44 AM
♥ Saturday, October 9, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"It's official: Kpop revolves around my life"
Anything asian revolves around my life really....except for the asian people I don't like in general and cannot get along with.
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10:34 AM
♥ Friday, October 8, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"She doesn't deserve this"
You know what? Fuck cessna. Fuck America and it's shit ass economy. I'm so freakin' pissed off and sad right now. My life is gonna be changing so much now that my mom is laid off. I'm not gonna like this I'm not gonna get used to this at all, I wanna kill everyone at cessna. TAKE. MY. MOM. BACK.
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12:59 PM
♥ Friday, October 1, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"I like how I hide & lie about the way I feel"
There must be some kind of irony in this or something. In my life, I mean. I get all the good luck, then all the bad luck comes. Am I really your best friend? Am I really someone you care about? I'm not gonna hold myself back for people who really don't care :/ After high school, these people are going to mean nothing to me, I'll be moving on to bigger and better things hopefully.
I hate stupid bitches that get in the way or try to get in the way to ruin things.