I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
NOTE**: I DO NOT OWN THE ICONS THAT ARE ON EACH OF MY POSTS, THE ICONS ARE CREDITED TO THEIR RIGHTFUL OWNERS, THANK YOU [CREDITS TO: K-pop Icons]
♥ Tuesday, January 5, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
Current Mood: Alone....
Today isn't a good day at all...I did not like it whatsoever...it seems like I'm always whining & complaining about everything but life is not perfect as SOME people think...I wish I could just redo the parts where I have made the mistakes in my life...that way I could change the outcome of today...but then ...if that happened, today wouldn't be ...today...=/. I looked at the tarot cards, & some of it disappointed me...but some gave me a bit of encouragement rather than putting me down. It seems like I'm always getting nervous & intimidated to work on art when there are other people around...I guess it's because of the tension that causes me to think about competition so much that my mind messes me up from actually being inspired to work...='[ I feel so alone right now...no close friends with me at all...whatsoever...The ones I am close with...they're not always there for me when I need somebody so I gotta keep learning to stay stronger...Today, I already have plentyyyy to do...I think I'm gonna save the English stuff for later...& work on my drawing & clay...I don't know about my math homework..maybe tomorrow.. I don't feel like thinking about math...I just...wanna feel like lying down on my bed, close my eyes, and let my mind go blank for like another eternity =/ -_- ....But NO I gotta keep trying & not let these things bother me!!! I HAVE TO KEEP TRYING!!! I won't make it if i don't try & do my best!! GRRR >=[ The only thing on my mind is...I don't think the guy I like wants to come over & hang with me....:[ so I'm a bit sad about that....I really want him to come over & he said he wants to but I think he's intimidated by something...Idk...Bye loves...for now :/ (PS - the icon creeps me out once in awhile lol)