Currently: Stressing On My Own

I knew that once I have found happiness, things won't be the same as much anymore. People are just critics, they won't leave you the fuck alone. Almost everybody tries to get in your way, even if it's not their exact intention to but still. Once I actually get happy, another thing pops up and ruins my mood for like the entire day. I don't know what this is, ...I just came back home today and started having a feeling that....things might not be able to work out the way I want it to..unfortunately =/ Well...only 1-2 more years...then maybe I'll get the freedom I want and need, or with more opportunities anyway. School work and screwing me around too..it's not even funny, if it's not other people, friends, or schoolwork, my parents stress me out even more about the damn ACT and AP Exam and shit..I'll do the best I can alright? I don't wanna promise anything, not most of the things ATM anyway. I was just called a slut & a bitch awhile ago, it's not even the fact that I care about what people call me or say about me, it's just the fact that people can't fuckin' learn to mind their own god damn businesses. Don't pay attention to other people's lives okay? You have a life, well maybe, but I sure as hell know that I do. People like that can go to hell. Everybody's a critic, it's retarded, I think that in some ways, many people can be so narrow-minded. I for one, I love meeting new people and talking to people, but if you give me a reason to snap and get pissed, I WILL get pissed and snap. I just feel so all alone and independent at the moment...My mom is even complaining now too, I can't stand this anymore, I don't even have family members that I can talk to or who I can be close to like as a best friend. Every body just left me basically. I'm on my own, stressing on my own. But it doesn't matter, I'll just learn to go through things myself. Thanks alot. I really don't see what the point in having a life or being given the life to live in this world means if you can't even do the things that make you happy. Even though my religion falls under Buddhism, but I'm just gonna go ahead and say this...If god put us in this world or created us in this world for a reason, then we must have a reason to be here and we should be able to be happy, if things were to get in our way all the time and stop us all the time from what we want to do there's no point in continuing our lives. That's just how I see it.. Such as..me for example. There's so many things I want to do, and want for things to happen, but the results come out as either it doesn't happen, it doesn't go as great as I want it to, or something stops it from happening. It happens all the time that I nearly just wanna lock myself up in a room, with the piano, a laptop, a lifetime of art supplies, videogames, and books. I'd rather have that, Thank you. Rather than going through this stupid shit thats unecessary to even exist as apart of my life. Anyway. Homework. Ugh. *rolls eyes*