I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
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♥ Tuesday, February 9, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
Currently: Asking for the Impossible..
So today...I looked like krap...Only because..I don't know really o_0 ...But what I do know...is that this is a hard battle to fight against...I hate it when I fall for somebody...I hate when I can't control my feelings when I need to...I just simply HATE IT especially when I'm at the edge of falling for somebody who's out of my league, and sooo cute and good looking...but he won't return the same amount of feelings back :( ... I thought ..that we had something...at first..I thought we had something going...until...he started acting like he was losing interest in me..which I probably wouldn't blame him or doubt him about...Not to mention, as the days go by, tensions are rising...What the EFF did I do to myself?! Like seriously? At this time?? Can you wait until later to screw up my relationship instead of now when I'm about to catch up for the ACT, AP Exam, AND in my Art Classes?!?!?! Holy shizzzz...Ugh..I told myself to just go with the flow...but it seems like my competitve side just keeps jumping out...Gawd..she's good, but what I said today...It was the truth 0_0 But..I guess I won't blame people or anybody else but only me...if she wins....HEY ANYWAY. I just feel hopeless at this moment in time..I think he's losing interest in me already...What the hell...He's not even replying to my IMs..... =[ =[ =[ =[....Man..I think my heart is gonna be broken REAL soon...Ugh...I don't know what to do anymore..just wish I could restart another life...Ugh Ugh Ugh Ugh Ugh.....Kill mee please....
Omg lmao..I'm being a bitch right now...and it feels nice xD It FEEELLSS GOOOOOD. I'm hardly ever one, unless you give a reason to. If you start messing with me, i'll attack you....with words!!! I don't use violence, violence is for men, and people who got nothing else to do and people who don't think before they act lol sorry to say if I offended anybody. LOL. But this is making me feel better, because I'm in the most shittiest mood ever I'm gonna be a bitch...I'm not gonna care what happens..
Soo...I guess now I truly understand why he's acting this way.....AND DAMN IT. I knew I should've gotten to know a person better before I started dating them =/ ....I mean now it all sorta makes sense, unless he's lying to me. But I don't think he would....So basically...the reason why he doesn't say much to me anymore ever since we met is because...he was happy that he finally got to see me again...and hearing those words "I love you.." were like music to my ears...I could fall asleep and wake up to those words...coming from him...But then he realizes he wants to see me more...but he can't because of the distance..therefore, he also discontinues saying the I love you part or just part of it ...because he doesn't wanna end up hurting himself like I already have...because he could do that if he got "too attached" or accidently fell for me during the wrong time...and now he doesn't know what to do because the distance is killing him...UGH OMG. WHY? WHY OH WHY?! I feel the same damn way too but I can't do anything! WTF. IDK IDK IDK OTTOKE?! My heart is pounding hard..so hard that it's literally shaking and moving my body along with each heartbeat..my hearts feel like they've got a fever...my face is starting to turn warm...I'm shaking...I don't know what to do...I just wish I could see him more... AAAGGHHHH FML!!! This day...ugh this shitty day needs to go away...I don't neeeeeeeeed another day like this..screw life...screw everybody in it...UGH. Send me to a peaceful place now.... ): F*** IM GOING TO BED UGH.