I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
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♥ Friday, March 19, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"It's about time..."
I thought I'd be less lazier from now on with my blog by changing the fonts, color, and moods and maybe adding more pics to each post lol and less lazier from other things too lol. I know I'm a lazy girl....but it's about time that I needed to be pressured. It's strange how one of the things I hate most in life, would come to hit me in the face sometimes to kinda snap me outta my "zoned out" mode...so that I can get up on my feet and do what I need to do. Being pressured..not the brilliant thing ever, but when you got somebody to pressure you about something THIS important...it's a good thing because you might need it. Especially when it's your dad most of all...because I should say that fathers expect great things from his own children...he needs to feel proud you know? Being a father can age a man so fast...the next thing you know he'd already see his children all grown up, ready to take a next step in life.
I stayed up late last night...first I was on my best friend's deviantart, then I went onto his blog...and read his blog the entire night. The whole entire thing just got me pretty emotional...just knowing how much him and I can pretty much relate to each other so much...I started tearing up pretty bad..well not that bad but yeah...I mean, the thing with him and his family..was one of the sad things I could partially understand...but the thing with friendship and love..I can truly understand 100%..It was sad really...realizing and thinking again about how much I see him every school day with a smile on his face, and his kindness towards everyone around him...hiding all of the emotional pain that he buries within himself, just trying to be happy and a normal guy so that he wouldn't worry others. I smiled...not in a good way..more like in a sad way, because I was just the exact same way. It's hard to explain about burying the emotional stuff...but him and I were just the same, I mean there are more things in life then just those things that try to bring you down. Life is a bitch itself. I just never knew that he really liked/loved the guy =/...& now I feel kinda bad because I could've given him more advice knowing with all the experience I've gone through.
A Picture of my best friend.
Bleh he's gone through a lot, just as I have. He doesn't deserve to go through so many things like that...he's such a great guy and a great friend and I think he deserves better...he deserves better than I do...that is what I think.