I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
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♥ Thursday, March 11, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
Currently: Not me..
I'm not feeling like myself whatsoever. It could be bad, it could be good, but mostly bad lol...My life is starting to go through a stage of stress, confusion, and going through overwhelming obstacles as to where it makes me feel like....not myself -_-
Anyway, I'm starting to lose confidence in myself too...I mean I keep thinking back of all the guys I've liked or went out with in the past...and start thinking to myself...Am I really that bad? Am I not that good enough for you? & Then people around me are so narrow minded and shallow, like wtf, and they blame me for being the way I am? I wanna end up with a white guy if it's possible, and if I'm not able to find a really good looking asian guy lmao...but eh..it's whatever all the white guys I've gone out with, or any guy outside of my race start liking a girl within their race and I'm like wtf...and I think at one point I screwed up and embarassed myself and made myself look bad too T_T can you call it FAIL? This is something that's making me feel so independent lately...Spring Break...doesn't look good so far =/ My life sucks ass...and now ..my mom is starting to feel real ill too and I don't know.
AND THEN, there's this odd and strange yet IRRITATING thing that has been happening to me lately, and it pisses me off too...like I think of a GREAT and FANTASTIC thing to do...and I think of it in my head but not say it out loud so that people won't jack offa my idea or style...so...after I think of it and imagine it in my head, like about a couple of days or weeks go by then my idea just all of a sudden, and so happens gets jacked by someone I know -___- like WTF?! EXAMPLES: 1. I wore this gray dress thing with a black sweater on the outside, it was the super FOBBIEST thing I ever wore, people complimented me on the gray and black theme I had on.....THEN...a week later, this damn black girl came to school wearing the SAME. EXACT. STYLE. that I had wore and I was left SPEECHLESS. (And then recently!) 2. I was in ceramics class, thinking of a super kool new idea for the lid of my vase...so then I did...and yes this was all in my head! Then...when we started a new project and when I was still working on mine...(Cause it fell apart and I had to redo it) T__T This one girl did the lid underneath the SAME EXACT WAY I had planned to do mine! 3. Same thing in ceramics class....I thought of doing a Flying Penguin..and I told my friend that in math class but no one else...then...next day...another project...Another girl said she was gonna do Penguins.... WAT DA HELL?! Can you explain this to me?! 4. 0_0...Our school...has the mullllllltiiiii culturrrrraaaalllll faaaaaiiir and the aaaassssiiiiiaaaan cluuuuubbb was doing a fan dance...and this chick...chose one of my favorite viet songs...and I was like "she jacked my song....." This is so retarded, why is this happening to me, if this keeps happening I'm gonna go crazy, literally, and I hope this isn't Karma, god damn...I just want this to stop happening. It's annoying as hell. Save me..
PS - 85% of people who say they hate drama, and belong to the "popular people"....ARE THE DRAMA. & Make the drama. It's true. Experience.