I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
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♥ Saturday, March 27, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"The Truth really hurts"
I know that I've already grown distant from A LOT of people thoughout my entire life. It's normal and it doesn't really bother me that much anymore because when things happen, they're supposed to happen the way they are.Another thing that also probably influences it are the choices that I make. I let go of that precious friendship because I didn't feel like I could keep it up anymore, especially when she chose to not listen to me and my advices and would rather be a "bad" type of girl instead. I know that not everybody in my life is gonna like me, because we can't get along with everybody. Nowadays, I've been really paranoid...I just feel like as if something has happened...Like..maybe somebody spread a rumor about me that my true friends don't know about...making everybody think I'm the type of person that I am not....or maybe I'm just back to those old paranoid days again. Either way, I have no one to share it with because no one really believes me when I say it T__T It's alright though, yesterday on the bus I thought to myself, even though there are gonna be people out there talking about me behind my back and making fun of me, or whatever, it's best to just learn to ignore them because you're in control of your life and you need to live your life to the fullest and do what you think is right, rather than lsitening to what other people say!!! & even if I don't make it throughout college to be a doctor or whatever...I'll be a nurse or something, if I don't even make it there...I'll still live my life to it's fullest, and live a happy life and enjoy life the way it is, even though I won't earn a lot of money and stuff but still life is life you can't live your life in depression all the time, and waste half of your life striving at something that took you forever to get there but you ended up failing. I think people should just enjoy life and make the best out of it, life goes by faster than you think, and I obviously learned that through my high school years...I mean, hell, I only got one more year left till I graduate, who would've thought that it would've gone by so fast. Plus, it's almost the end of high school so people need to be more mature anyway, and grow up, we're about to graduate soon so yeah. We all need to grow up, but still, I don't even care anymore because I only got a year and 2 months left so it's all good. I'm just scared to get into college now...Bleh I'm definitely gonna have to do my best.
&...it's my birthday today...yet it doesn't feel like it at all. =/