"Karma can be a real bitch"
Today is probably the worst crappiest day I've ever had. It wasn't the overall day that was bad, but the fact that I was nearly out of it 80% of the time, not being able to focus at all, feeling like crap, and looking like crap & I was more out of it than I had ever been in my entire life. I don't what in the world is going on with me, but I wish it would just go away. I don't know if it's something that's effecting me and I don't know about it,..like something mental that is effecting me and I don't know what it is, or something physical, like an illness or something. Well this is great, it's almost my birthday and I feel like this? & thanks for all the love I had today -___- First off, 1st hour wasn't so bad, 2nd hour...I started actually painting today, didn't get far though...I saw all the color of the paint and got excited, but then when I held the brush and took a color, and started practicing and blending it on the small board it looked fun...but I started feeling unsure about it. Then I knew I had to get going because my teacher wanted us to get done with it...like by next week or something? (Holy shit lol & I just started too 0_0) I started painting the background, and one stroke...onto the canvas...it was like a whole new different experience than I had thought....Like it was a little bit of a strange exciting feeling, but then it got to a very scared, intimidated, and unsure feeling about my experience, the competition, and how it's going to turn out. I guess I'm just worried about losing...and having it turn out like shit, which it will most likely turn out like that. =/ I mean, the painting I picked at first was even more hard and looked more complicated...but I don't know anymore, I'll try my best to do whatever I can to make it look good, no matter how much time I got I'll take my time. But ever since I got out of that class, ...I was lost for almost the entire day...because after looking at everybody's artwork...I felt as if mine..isn't gonna turn out nearly half as good as theirs...I'm sorry I misjudged some people. (Eh only a few, I'm not mean lol...) At least I'm honest...Then I did not do anything in math class which is bad because I SHOULD be doing something. 4th hour,...didn't do anything. Hardly. & near at the end of the day one of my friends told me how when I walked into the door she was like "what is up with the western outfit?" and I was like "HUH?" *looks at self* Then she told me it was the scarf and the curly hair, and I was like ".....ha..haha...haa.." I didn't really get it because the style is ghetto...so then I was meaning to say it like a stuck up person in a joking way you know? So I said "Yeah It's supposed to be the type of ghetto style" and then this one chick who thought she was wise enough, spoke up and told me "haha I'm sorry but it didn't really work" Then I just snickered, and walked out of the door. I think that is so rude lol. I told my best friend about it and he even agreed. Well, at least she was honest. But I wanna see her try to pull off the look then T___T.
Bleh..it's allergy season, since it's that time of the year again....My allergies acted up right when I got into 4th hour, just a tad bit then I got home and it got a bit worse..Now I still feel like crap and I just wanna go to bed, or rather take a nap but I know that if I do that...I won't be able to go to sleep tonight..so yeah might not. Depends. The ACT...in two weeks...way too soon, and there's gonna be a lot of shit going on too, my friends are right, why the hell would the school recommend us to take the one in April when there's a lot of shit going on at that time too? Other people got lives you know, thats like one MAIN thing people will NEVER get. They just try to cram in a whole bunch of crap in our life when we have other things to do too. Ugh...FML. Assessments in April comin' up...Then Magnet Day...If i'm correct, each magnets will be going to different places, and depending on grade too. I wanna go to the museum with my best friend, well not because he's going but because the fact that that's the museum I've been wanting to go to. The one here isn't so great. It's rather boring. & my other close friend is deciding she'll leave me to try and go on THAT museum field trip too T___T isn't that nice? If I ask and don't get to go...FML. FML FML FML. I'll be going on that field trip ALLLLLLLLLL ALONE ILL BE LONELY AS HELL. There's hardly anybody in the science magnet that I'm kool with. So eff that. UGH DAMN YOU LIFE.
