I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
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♥ Monday, March 15, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
Currently: In a State of Emotional Shock & Pain
I wish there were other words that could actually describe how I feel right now. Home sweet home...I'm back from Oklahoma and I should be asleep right now since I am exhausted but I thought I'd update first, and just sorta express myself before I forget it all in the morning.
Well...The "vacation" was not as I expected...nor for my parents either...knowing the fact that I'm still overwhelmed by the amount of work I still haven't done...=/ I was extremely exhausted the entire day, I looked like shit, I felt like shit, I wasn't hungry at all the entire day, except for near the afternoon but that was only a tad bit...In the morning..walked out of the Vietnamese restaurant smelling like Pho -_-...then went to like 3 Ross's...the first one ..I bought a lot of clothes but not in all the styles I wanted...went to the 2 other ones and it was a big FAIL. For my parents and I. Then went to Rue 21 that was a FAIL too...only thing I bought was a belt, cause they were too expensive there in Oklahoma. Then went to go eat, but I felt like I hardly enjoyed the food at all...then went on the ride home...watched Angel Sanctuary...I was tearing up lol...But it made me realize many things & gave me encouragement too...then I took a nap...I don't know for how long but it was sorta nice but not really..cause it got interupted by many things...Also during the day..my dad really pissed me off by saying things like "If you don't listen to me and follow what I say you will fail in life." Wtf is that supposed to mean? Does that mean I have to make YOUR dream come true in order to make MY life better? I need to chase after the things I want to do...I brought up about continuing doing Ceramics and possibly other art classes because they brought up about vases and etc when we were in Ross then he told me that I should stop because I might be heading the wrong way...I told him I need to do it for fun and stuff so that I can relieve most of my stresses in life, why won't he try to understand my feelings? Gawd I'm tearing up again...not only was that the thing that ruined my day..but also in the car...Of course they had already agreed to not let me go on the trip along with my mom to Vietnam over the summer...But I don't agree with her going alone...not anymore...I knew there could possibly be issues but once they brought up a whole bunch of things because they were paranoid...0_0...I just wanted to start crying because..I want her to go in order to see her own mother...when she has the chance..and that would show respect and show that she's not selfish and still cares...but then again..I don't want anything to happen to her...(also the reason why I had wanted to go along with her) but...I don't know anymore...
So..after we came home I took a shower, but during the car ride when we were near home..My right eye had this sharp pain then my left eye started itching, then my right eye felt like it had something in it...so then I thought it'd be okay..like a normal thing you know? I looked in the mirror my eye was alright...Went home...looked in my bedroom mirror, it was alright, got in the bathroom, ...BAM both of my eyes were like bloodshot red! IT LOOKED SO EFFIN SCARY! It looked like as if I was turning into a mutant or something or like my eyes were about to bleed! I was freaking out..it's a little better now...but still a bit irritated..I just hope it's something normal like an irritation or me just being tired and needing sleep..but yeah...I'm off to bed now, Back to work tomorrow =/ ...Damn...& Waiting for black soshi!