"Fustration can bring you to the dark side..."
I can't believe how fustrated I'm getting with my portrait painting. Maybe...because I'm not in an alone place where I can think and truly concentrate and all I hear in the background is "Omg, his painting is epic!" "Oh wow, yours is so good" "Whoa it really does look like him" Honestly, that makes me more paranoid about how my painting is gonna turn out and then that puts twice as much more peer pressure upon me as the tension rises. My friend told me that fustration will lead to anger, and anger will lead you to the dark side, and I don't disagree with him, lol, because he's right. I just need to keep that in mind. I mean it's just SO HARD to think when EVERYBODY is talking about how much they wanna win something or how good each other's work is, ...that sorta intimidates me, since I'm in the science magnet and I don't know how the painting will turn out. Bleh, I shouldn't worry =/ I maen when it comes to science I can most likely win, I just don't know about Art, this year will be my first year having my artwork in the project's fair...wish me luck....eh. Luckily, since the math quiz today was hella hard, our teacher was nice enough to give us a chance and work with somebody near the end of the hour because he realized no one has turned in the quiz yet and we only had 15-20 mins of class left, it was actually hard and confusing to understand, because of all the formulas and which one goes with which and you have to understand what the question is asking for too....in which case, I did not understand what it was asking for lmao.
So, today in my 1st hour my friend asked me if I put blush on, and I said "no" then she told me it looks like it since my cheeks are always rosy, and I told her they're always naturally like that. Then I thought to myself, that usually when I'm on a diet or dieting too much, my cheeks never get rosy at all, it's usually candy that makes my cheeks rosy lol. Weird but it's a fact. Food involves in it too.
Man...I'm just getting so stressed out about the ACT and everything else, I don't wanna make it seem like I'm gonna fail at both. I JUST BLAH ALSKJFFJLASKFJ!
Well I'm gonna go watch something funny now, like...American Pie, and maybe Ninja Assasin later :D