"One disappointment may lead to another"
It's simply amazing how life can be so unfair if you look back and think about it. I mean...take a moment and think what this life has done to harmless people and them having to face their own "fate" this way. You see these people, born into this world, as a kind, warmhearted, harmless human being, yet they either die at an early age because of some incident, or..they get some kind of illness or deadly disease that nearly puts them handicapped, or basically facing just any severity of suffering...it just makes me sad. Then when you look at all of these selfish, rude, mean, cruel people out there who simply just disgust you, and yet, nothing has happened to them. Well not yet anyway. Some may be lucky and may live "happily ever after" which is definitely not fair at all when you have other good people in this world suffering because of some dramatic matter. It disgusts me. Funny how life goes against you, especially when you want the good things to happen, they almost never happen half of the times, unless you're lucky enough. Although we really do not want this world to be truly perfect.
Whenever I look and see people going through tough times...my heart just sinks...and I get all teary-eyed. Yes, I am emotional, truly emotional at heart. Who am I to blame? Being emotional just shows that you care, as a person of course. My mom told me about how sad it was to just hear my grandmother, who is facing colon cancer right now, and does not know that she has cancer...say these words "It's alright, I won't be sick like this forever, once I get better, I'll visit my daughter" ...Those words hit me like a train, I couldn't stand it, I almost wanted to cry, but I held it in so hard...Knowing that she's clueless as to the fact that she has cancer just kills me on the inside. & now, just awhile ago...my mom & I heard my dad kicking the soccer ball downstairs, and then my mom said the words that just hit me pretty deep. I ..can say that I'm pretty close with my dad, maybe not so close that I tell him everything like those other kids/teens that I envy most about that...but I wanted to cry. Now that I just think back on all the things that my dad has done for me just because he cares about me, it makes me just wanna slap myself so hard in the face for being so stupid in the past and being such a rebel. Tears are flowing down my cheeks now..I didn't mean to bring it up, but now it's just bothering me. All the things that he's done for me, he's just trying to get me to have the greatest future I will ever get. He's a great father..I mean Dad..now I realize how much the things I do impact him. I don't want this to get any worse. My personality and habits are getting in the way though, but I'll try to breakthrough. I'll do my best.
PS - Kids & Teens who do drugs are idiots.
