I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
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♥ Friday, March 12, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
Currently: Bleeding Away
So...my life...is slowly turning into hell...after listening to songs from back when I was little...it reminded me of how much I used to be so young, wild, and free..I was able to be happy all the time and not care about a simple damn thing, no stress, no such thing as love...but now,...my life is full of lies, just a bunch of BS, so stressful, and overwhelming and not fun anymore. I'm losing all the confidence there is....am I really to give up this easily? I just think that if I keep trying ...I'll just end up hurting myself...mentally... =/ It's already driving me insane ever since I got into high school..and now that I think about all of the stuff...I'm really not that smart..I screwed up on half of my life and I knew that I could've done so much better and cared more about myself, I realized I put too many people before me..I'm not so lucky as I used to be anymore because I chose for my life to be that way since I chose the wrong path to walk on. I'm just hoping the results will come back okay...I don't want to feel beaten, I don't want to feel ...walked on...I just don't...I'm overwhelmed because I wanna be so much better than everyone else right now...=/ Yeah sorry to say I'm almost an over-achiever who wants to be ahead of everybody...I don't want this chick to play the piano better than me even though I've played since I was 6 and she started recently..I don't want this other chick to get a higher score on the ACT than me when I spend much more time dedicated to my schoolwork compared to her, I don't want this OTHER chick to get a scholarship when I'm trying my best to get one and especially when I'm trying to put that all together with improving my drawing skills and increasing my talents!!!! WTH. I just feel like ending my life right now and starting over...I feel terrible...but then again..I don't wanna throw away all the stuff that I have now in my life and just giving up that easily. I don't wanna lose against that. I'll just have to continue to fight for what I believe in till the very end. I just want things to go back to the way they were..but I'm asking for too much..I know I am...I want to be multi-talented...I wanna be someone special who stands out...and is known for her hard work ='[
& also I'm praying that my birthday party goes well tomorrow..hopefully she won't come and crash the damn party because I am not in the freakin' mood for this krap to go on again. PLEASE. This is MY birthday party, I will break down in the end if she does it again this time...please..not like Thanksgiving ok? Please I am asking nicely. -___-