I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
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♥ Wednesday, March 31, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"Paranoia Kills"
Yesterday's Review:
So I was so overwhelmed and pissed yesterday that I couldn't actually explain how I really felt yesterday during school. What happened was that...tensions started rising between my enemies and I...It's like as if ...people are just trying to lie to me...in order for me to back off and not try my best because well...in 2nd hour...when I was continuing to paint my eyes...the dude in my class that painted REALLY good and which he'll probably win 1st place or something at the Project's Fair...but yeah um..he said I was doing a good job...and I sat silent staring at him for like 5 seconds straight and I mean 5 seconds too! Because first of all, I was shocked he would say that to me...second of all I was surprised because mine did not look good at all and it was crap compared to his...even though I just started...but I just kept thinking to myself.."Is he just saying that so that I think that I'm doing really good but I'm actually not because he doesn't like me and doesn't want me to win anything...or is he really being honest or..is he just trying to be nice when it's like shit???" So I'm confused right there...then..what also caught my attention is that my friend who sits next to me in that class fudged up on his face by accident since he's colorblind and all..then our teacher came over and said it looks really good and I was like "........................-_____________-" So then I thought back to MY painting...and remembered when I asked for help with the background and she said it looks good...it just needs to be lighter...if I wanna make it lighter but it's good..she didn't help me..you know? Then I started thinking things again...like ..."Is she just saying that? Just to be nice? ...Because she doesn't wanna help me? Or maybe she really supports the art students and does not want me to win anything for the project's fair because I'm a science student..???" Bleh...I don't even know anymore...Paranoia kills...T_T...I mean I wanna win something for the Project's Fair...AT LEAST "Best Show"...BUT I doubt it...because even getting honorable mention won't help anything...really...well to me anyway...=/ But I'll keep trying and I won't give up..I'll PERFECT almost everything if I need to, in order to prove people wrong!.. and then during lunch...people kept staring at me...I didn't know why...I wish I brought my mirror.....MY MIRROR...HEHE I gotta bring with me today lol. I forgot yesterday lol..but anyways...Then I asked my best friend if there was anything on my face or if I looked awkward..and he said no...so then I was relieved..but still paranoid...T____T Nothing was on my face when I checked in the restroom mirror..so yeah...Idk..maybe it's because I curled my hair or something IDK but I've been curling it for the past week now -___- BLEH BLEH BLEH whateverrrrr. I'm always paranoid about everything, well let's see how today goes.