"Creativity is the key in a piece of artwork"
Sometimes I just find it so necessary to perfect myself and be good at everything. Back when I was little, I limited myself too much, especially when my parents made me play the piano all the time. Now, I can see more of the world and I'm just so fascinated by almost everything, so now I'm wanting to almost try everything. Maybe...I'm sick or something...I don't know...but seems like once I try something and like it...I feel like I GOTTA be good at it, because I don't want people to look down on me at all. Now I'm just obsessed and crazy about being perfect and multi-talented. I guess it can be bad, it can lead to bad things I should say....but I'm not worried about it for the time being because what I think is the main issue is that...I still don't know what I like to do yet...as for a future career =/ My parents want me to have something to do with the medical field, like being a doctor, er..actually being one, not something like a doctor T____T lol...But I still haven't found out what my passion is yet...maybe it's because I put myself in sucha diverse situation that there's too many choices to choose from which makes me feel all confused. I'm starting to feel like I'm losing myself each and every day...it's like I don't know who I am anymore because of this.
1st hour today was good just like yesterday, my ceramics piece,...I think it's gonna turn out pretty good. I'm excited to work on it some more. 2nd hour...bleh, I liked how I was quiet the entire time, it brings back to the "good 'ol" middle school days when I was so quiet and didn't talk to anyone and could actually focus on my work and what I'm supposed to be doing. Except for all the loud talking the sophomores were doing which kinda bothered me a bit, but it's alright. I'm starting to understand more about oil painting...and I'm in the middle of fixing my background.....still....It looks better now, because I found out how to mix the colors and make it look right. That reminds me I should look up some stuff later. 3rd hour, I just tried to catch up on my math work...in which I did, but our math quiz is tomorrow, I just wanna do good on it, because I have a B- in that class 0_0 something my dad AND MOM isn't so proud about -____- 4th hour was entertaining, I'm just starting to wonder if it's actually an English class sometimes lmao. Next monday is the vocab quiz again, and next tuesday is the novel test along with the essay I HATE ESSAYS. Overall, I just wanna improve my art skills....and catch up in Calculus class I just wish I had the natural talent for drawing and painting...well I kinda already do, but I don't think I'm like ...up there...where I'm able to make epic drawings and paintings, also since I'm slowwwwww. In art. lmao and slow in my head too. haha.
Tomorrow's Friday...I'm glad...just gotta suffer one more day of waking up early then I can sleep in. Thank the lord right? haha. I'm really exhausted though, losing nearly 15-20 hours of sleep every week wears you out A LOT. & you age faster too.... :( Tomorrow ..there's also gonna be a party in which A LOT of people are invited, I'm one of them but unfortunately I can't go, because the time is too late.
Also due to the stress, I feel queasy every time I think about the ACT...Well, I gotta start working now EH.
PS - LOVIN' AFTER SCHOOL'S NEW SONG 'BANG!' :D :D :D