"It's always too good to be true"
Okay so, I knew you never cared so stop trying to fuckin' act like you care when all you're just trying to do is find out shit about me so you can laugh about me behind my back. Stop being sucha fake ass bitch in front of everyone, I know you're liking his status's because I'm sure you know that he's referring to me. Stay out of it. No one needs your input okay? You act like you're all goody-goody and shit but you're not. I've seen others pull it off better. Don't act nice in front of me like you like me, just because you're fuckin' popular at this school, I know how and who you are and you haven't changed a bit. You're just hiding your true self behind this invisible barrier that everyone's too god damn blind to see but me. I've gone through so much to know how and who you are. I'm way more independent and much stronger than you think, and the more I make the mistakes and the more the people are neglecting me and being mean to me, the more I learn. That's just the advantage that I got and have compared to you, I mean I have others too, but I'm not gonna waste my time typing or waste my breath saying what all it is. Trust me, I'm gonna be there, be at a point where I'll feel so successful that it will seem like you're underneath me. We're just gonna have to see how this goes.
Damn...anyway, sorry for the long speech..I'm just kinda disappointed in 2 people right now. I lost my bodyguard...but it's alright, it's a big misunderstanding...well that's more of an understatement but...I sent him a message and took care of it. I'm mature enough to say how I feel now rather than hiding and running from the issue. I shouldn't have told him where I was gonna go for the ACT....egh....great. Still goin' to Friends though probably. Need to raise that damn ACT score up but first off, I gotta settle my score with the AP exam. Fuck. I'm gonna be needing to finish my portrait drawing first tonight though. My teacher is expecting it tomorrow. Gotta do my best. Shouldn't fall asleep either. & I ate way too much junk food today, in the end, this was a pretty good day. I usually hate Fridays though because of Advocacy not because of the teacher but because of some of the people in there. =/ Who cares lol.
Main thing I've realized today: For once in my life, I'm glad that I'm not popular. You know why? Because if you're popular and everyone knows you, you have to be really careful of what you do or say because if you screw up just once, the whole entire school will talk shit and bash on you then you'll get looked down upon and wished that you were never popular in the first place. So good luck with that. I'd rather be hardly known and best known to have great talents and a funny and nice personality by people who know me rather than gaining all that popularity by everyone. Thanks for trying to fuck with my life last year, you're one hell of a friend. There's one big and main thing that my parents have taught me, that is, don't take shit from people because it's one hell of a cruel world out there, let them do what they wanna do and don't let them get the best of you because as long as you are who you are and don't give a damn what they do, you'll be more successful than them. If people are going to judge you for the way you are, then they're just jealous assholes and bitches who judge people just based on what they see, think and hear, narrowminded people who just won't take the time to think more into it and get to know the person rather than being immature and starting shit. The world is just scary and I need to learn to take care of myself, and I learned from all of this shit too. No joke. If you think this is all a threat, and I'm a threat to you, try re-thinkin' about all what you've done in the past. Thank you to all those who support her and are friends with her, because you people are sure narrowminded-far-sighted arrogants who hardly know anything, because you think you know a person when you don't. There's a difference between trying to change and get rid of your bad habits, and locking them away and having them hide behind an invisible barrier, while the fake you comes at it.
PS - All I wanna do is kiss kiss kiss.....Sometimes I just wanna be alone with him. I'm gonna have to hang out with my 'younger sister' and the girl who I always say 'shut up' to this summer :D
