"I'm living a life full of lies and betrayal"
How did I ever get so unlucky? As my life starts going on, I'm starting to lose the strength and luck. I still have the confidence, but all the others are slowly slipping away from me. Maybe it's because of the people around me has to do with this...but wait...I cannot blame them...Was it the things I did and said? Sorry didn't know I was that much of a screw up. I used to be sucha lucky girl, but now I'm no longer lucky. Knowing how people are starting to dislike me more and more, it just kinda hurts knowing that when you're nice, all you get in return is betrayal and people step all over you.
Today was my best friend's talent show audition ...he did great, everybody loves him, and even more now.
As his best friend also, I'm scared that the popularity will get to his head and it might ruin our friendship, because it took us for this long to have our friendship get this far...I just don't want it to go to waste. Now I'm gonna feel like a loner, *sings CN Blue's song* LOL....okay not funny anymore..but..watch all the people come up and talk to him and just ignore me like I am a nobody. Great thanks, yes, I truly deserve it.
My best friend deserves all of the attention though, he's talented, smart, and funny and gets along with everybody.
He deserves all of that, because after all the things that happened he earned those things in return with his hard work.
But...as for me...hard work....confidence...bravery...facing all of the risks and embarassments....I still get nothing...I used to think I have everything I need...I do mostly...Like a big house...a great family,....I get most of the things I want, I'm spoiled to the max...but in return, I get no respect, FROM ANYBODY, no encouragement, just full of lies and betrayal....Whenever I make mistakes, people just shove me aside because I'm supposedly a screw up bitch, then when it comes to him or other people, they just forgive them and forget like as if anything has ever happened...if only it was that way with me too...sometimes life is way too unfair...People say they care but they really don't. Everytime they say those krap to me...there's like a invisible barrier between me and the words and the barrier just reflects everything away from me therefore I cannot believe it unless there is somebody who is able to break the barrier.
I feel betrayed, thanks for having me being born onto this word with a hopeless and meaningless life full of misery and disappointment.