"Believing that it Isn't True"
Funny as it sounds, I've always thought things were straightfoward according to the way I think, but it never seems to be that way. Love seems difficult and hard to understand and cope with once you THINK that you're in love but you're really not. People say that love can happen at any age, while others may think that some are too young to even be thinking about love. To me,...in any cases, love is like luck. There are many people out there who are about my age who want to experience true love right at this very moment, but every time they're in a relationship and realize that it might be love...it doesn't work out the way they want it too because the love isn't returned or it simply is not working for them. On the other hand, there are a couple of people in this world who are very lucky to find love so fast that it hit them like a bullet train unknowingly, those lucky bitches and assholes. :) Not everybody is lucky like that, as for me, I just think that I'm way better off alone FOR NOW, but it's not like that right now, and I'm one of those unfortunate people who want to find it now...to get it over with rather than going through the suffering in college and later on in life when it gets hard and difficult...But ...it's gonna have to come to me since I've been trying to look for it. Therefore, I'm somewhat unlucky.
Now..I remember how back then, everytime when I would try to approach these groups of popular people and wanna try to be friends with them, they'd look at me like "Uhhh wth are you doing near me..or even talking to me" Yeah, it was difficult back in middle school. Till I got into high school, first year was terrible, second year was even worse, and third year which is right now...it's just decent and neutral, I started caring less. I have more friends now than ever, but some people are just lucky to be friends with whoever they wanna be friends with...unlike me...who I have to work HARD to get what I want, and play it rought too not to mention -____-
"Pretty me" can't just act all pretty in front of a group of guys in order to have them to talk to me, .....I have to have them talk to me IN SOME KIND OF WAY that I do not wish to do lol. It's difficult.
But anyway,...I realized sometimes my parents can be so harsh towards me...sometimes they judge me, and then pressure me at times when I don't feel like being pressured but know that I should be pressured for my own good....then my mom always treats my lil bro better than me...she always ends up comparing me to other girls and I'm like "uhh wtf idrc..." then my dad always compares me to my lil bro...and tells me what I'm NOT good at...T___T It's a life full of happiness. Never doubt the possibilities!!! Because they impossibilities to you...are probably POSSIBLE!!
The worst quote I ever came up with :)
