I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
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♥ Sunday, May 16, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"You're not here at the times when I need you & want you here with me the most"
Blehhh, back to school again tomorrow =/ Need to finish that drawing soon. Starting to slack off ever since he started....yeah okay I'm not gonna bring it up anymore because every time I do...it just really upsets me. STOP IT!! I NEED to STOP focusing on all of this lovey dovey shit right now, I just need to STOP so that I wouldn't have to go through this god damn pain again over and over. My heart just can't stop ...achingggg. AGH. I can't really say it though, can't show it either! I'm banning myself from doing those things.
Are you just full of lies?
Or...are you actually apart of my memories, life and moments?
"If I could flutter like a bird
I would fly to you
And offer my wing
To your wounded back"
You just wanna put me through this pain so that I will be "stronger", or is it so that it'll hurt me so bad that you're willing to have me forget about you? Putting me through this pain...because you won't be in as much pain as I would? Selfishness? I know that it's not me that you will want later on, you'll realize that. As much as I love and adore you....I can't do anything about it. I hate this. I hate the fact that I'm truly affected by it a lot.