I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
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♥ Friday, June 4, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"Trying to so hard not to fall apart"
This sucks. I cannot stop even though I know I deserve better. It's almost noon....I know you're awake...I've kinda lost most of the hope that was there....it's just kinda on/off. You lied, which hurt me the most, do you want me to forget about you? Is that it? Are you taking it as if I wanted to hurt you? You don't have to try and hide it from me because you know that eventually I'll find out. I hate you so much you just have no idea. What am I to do? Ottoke? You've caused so much pain, you led the nightmare I had....the saddest thing is that you even admitted that you lied in the nightmare, which hurt me even more. I hate her and I hate you. She doesn't even know the least that's going on, you've probably led her on since day 1 behind my back, without me knowing. I know that while you "loved" me you had feelings for her too, there's no denying now that you're going out with her jerkface.
Am I to look upon the stars and depend on them? I don't think so, I don't wish to wait, to hold back, to sympathize you anymore....What kind of excuse do you have for me this time? It better be good, everything you say to me know is just gonna be bullshit. I'm hoping that I don't catch you with her, or with any other girl, or I swear, I will get my revenge one day, this is what you're going to get trying to crush my pride unknowingly. If I see you, I will walk by you like you're just some stranger I've never met in my entire life. I don't even wanna give you another day, but somehow it feels like as if you're just running away, running and hiding. Foolish, selfish, coward.
DAY 1.
still....4 more mins till noon. I'll be updating later this afternoon and evening.