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The Girl


About Me::.
name:: Sophitia
bday:: 3/27
height:: 157cm
weight:: 45kg
ethnicity:: Asian/Viet&proud!
place:: Kansas
Other::
I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff, I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/. I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol. People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage & confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know. My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time, but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]

Email : Ask me, maybe i'll give it 2 you.

Cravings


LOVES

-Pandas♥
-Hello Kitty(Sanrio!)
-My Cousin
-Traveling -Asian Music
-Asian horror movies
-Asian dramas
-FOOD (esp. asian food)
-Siberian huskies<3
-Turkish Angoras<3
-BaBu Bear(morning glory!)
-Writing Novels
-Blogging
-Drawing
-SoBe
-Playing diabolo
-Videogames
-Final Fantasy
-Kingdom Hearts
-Singing
-Modeling
-Shopping!!(esp. w/ cousin!)
-Fall&Winter
-Fashion
-Makeup
-Sweets
-Fobby Stuff ^_^
-Ulzzangs&UlzzangStyle!
-My Buddies
-Helping ppl out
-Anime;Vampire Knight<3
-Manga

DISLIKES
-Liars
-Insects
-Dolls
-Fakers/posers
-Rude, disrespectful ppl
-Ppl who start drama
-Gossipers
-'know-it-alls'
-Show offs
-Stuck ups
-Bossy ppl
-Racist ppl/Racism
-Discrimination
-Judgemental ppl
-Narrow-minded ppl
-Haterz
-Copycatters
-Nosy Ppl
-Preps&those 'kind' of girls
-Balloons
-Loud noises
-Cramped places
-The Dark

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Saturday, June 26, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

"I am now just only a girl to you"

Ahhh...my cousin is lucky...I guess when it comes to both of our lives, I can't really say that she has it more easy going, actually, yes she does -_- but on the other hand she runs into the same things that I do too...which is why we understand how each other feels so much. I guess you can call it a bad/good thing. Weird. I mean, her parents let her out more than my parents do, she has a bf, she has a life, she can hang out with her bf and see him everyday. ME on the other hand, I'm going starting to go back to the old middle school days where I'm just lonely, quiet, independent, bf-less (lol), non-popular, non-social, just being the original nerdy self that I used to be. I guess it's not all that bad, it just means I can finally start focusing on more important and better things, right? I mean ever since I got into high school, I guess you can say that I abused the fact that I DID know sooo many people that I let my popularity get to my head. Not to mention I've never had that many guys clinging all over me like that either, so I let that get the best of me too, and now that I think back i just feel like a fool just "desperate" trying to look for a guy that will love me and whom I will love. Ridiculous right? Call me crazy. I just need to enjoy life the way it is set out for me right now, I don't really need them to calm my nerves and soothe me of my worries when...I can just be strong and do it for ME rather than others. Plus...he wasn't referring to me anyway =/ Which I am embarrased for that but I kinda knew and figured that it wasn't me. I'm just so glad I let all the other guys in the past go, I'm just soooo glad, I cannot stress that enough, it feels like the burden and weight and lifted off of my shoulders miraculously!! :D It's like I'm a totally brand new person, starting over, and into the new world!! Wow that sounds so corny. I guess I really haven't had anyone to talk to about my feelings...I don't have anyone anymore honestly, this is the only place I feel that my privacy won't be invaded, nor will anyone I know or knows me that will judge and pick on me for the things I say and how I feel. This blog is truly 100% honest and straight from my heart. This is the only place where I can only truly express all of my feelings and actually feel better about it! I guess that's why I've been blogging a lot more lately since I don't have anyone to talk to really...WELL Since he's gonna be gone the rest of July, I guess I'll be hanging out with Auntie and my Father after I come back from my trip, so it's all good. I have people to hang out with...I just...there are just some that sometimes I don't feel like hanging out with as much as my nice and good nature comes in...I just don't know what else I want. I wish there's just gonna be one day...where I'm proud and truly honest to say "I wish nothing would change, because I'm happy the way things are now" .....YEAH. Only a miracle would occur if THAT happened T__T I mean...my life and I are just sooo imperfect you just have NO IDEA. If I wanted things my way....then I guess I'd be the happiest girl alive...but...you can't always get whatchu want. By me saying that, I'm just being selfish really. I'm pretty much rambling on about nothing haha...I guess...I don't even know what to say or what I'm saying exactly anymore...Point is,....this is kinda it...Not necessarily there yet I guess but I'm predicting that it will soon be...2011...what will you bring me? I have to be ready, I have to be prepared to stand up against ANYTHING. So yeah this IS kinda it...I gotta be ready to control my feelings and just let go and admit the fact that whatever happens, happens, and that I can't change that or anything else. Trust me, if I had the power, I would change things, but then again that wouldn't be fair to the rest of the world and that's just me being and thinking selfish again. *long sigh* I'm almost at the breaking point where I'm just pretty much done with everything and just wanna start all over, like ...erasing my memory and just starting over from the beginning. Bleh 7 more days 'till I leave. I'm not talking to them for awhile so yeah. It could be a month, or 2...or longer...Well, I hope you two have the best of luck I guess, have a great life and hope you enjoy your life with the girl you love. I'm ready to tackle any obstacles that get in my way. This time, it's not for love, it's for me and my life. No more fighting for love...because I just feel SO effin' stupid for making it seem like I'm waiting for him!!! Which I kinda was to be honest, but now...I'm gonna do it for my sake, because I need to get a better control of my feelings and STOP falling for people so hard and fast! It's a BIG issue that I gotta soon fix myself, so therefore, I'm gonna be single for awhile, NO MATTER WHAT. Plus I don't really feel like dating anybody anyway...I'm gonna turn down everyone for awhile. Doesn't matter if he's drop dead gorgeous either, he's gonna get the same answer as all the other guys really =/ It's gonna hurt LOL but I'm ready for it. He'll understand but I HIGHLY DOUBT it'll be someone drop dead gorgeous...0_0 No more waiting, it's just me, myself, and I. I'm gonna be ready...I will be ready....I AM ready...so bring it on.

*** I, vow, today, Saturday, the 26th of June, in 2010, at 11:04 A.M., that I will not date anyone until 2011.
With that said I WILL also continue to NOT date even if it is 2011 unless I am certainly 100% ready, and 100% sure about my decision***



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