I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
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♥ Tuesday, June 29, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"I think about you everyday..."
Saaaaaad. As much as I'm trying to hold myself back, I can't stop thinking about him. I feel hopeless and drained, BUT this is it! It's almost time for me to leave here...4 more days, then I'm off!! Cannot wait! Afterwards I just gotta find time to hang with my Father & Auntie. lol. :) Go see a movie or something. Anywhoooo hehehe, I gotta let go of those peeps...I think it'll just be best to.
Soo I was right. He's leaving to Australia to meet up with the other chick....for an entire month....who knows what they're gonna be doing. So now everything makes sense...he told me he was saving up money one time but never told me the reason, he posts up statuses about her on fb and msn, he always sounds unsure when he talks to me...it ALL adds up now. I'll be pissed if he comes back taken lol. Honestly though, I can't do anything about this and I got no power over this so I just might as well back off for as long as I can. At least I'll have a month to just think about all the things I've done. I've had enough really. It seems like I'm a total stupid retard every time I think about the fact that I wanted to wait for him when I'm sure I know that he thinks he's in "love" with her since he'd do anything for her, even saving up money and going over there to visit her =/ It makes me feel like shit and that I'm pretty much nothing compared to her. It's like I'm dirt and she's platinum gold that everybody would just wanna get their hands on 0_0 Thanks a lot douchebag for making me feel special. WOW that felt good saying all that stuff LOL. I just gotta stop being such a lil ....clinger T___T I broke the promise to myself about not talking to both of them for a month, but this is just like a farewell, so yeah. Anywho, I'm pretty much done, this is it! It's time that I let them both go so it doesn't matter. I'll just see how long they're gonna put up with me not talking to them for awhile. Like it matters since they both got ppl they care about. Psht. Buncha BS.