I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
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♥ Wednesday, August 18, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"Leave me be, I'll always be like this"
I'm surely cursed. I'm always rejected in so many different ways in my life, and on so many different levels. It doesn't matter anymore, I'm not gonna care about anything anymore after I graduate, I just want this year over with, I'm not motivated anymore. I'm leaving my friends behind, especially the ones I have now. I have NO best friends. I feel like I'm being lied to constantly...Life is just a big lie, I don't even get to choose the path that I really wanna go...I'm still confused about life and I still don't know what I wanna do yet. I'm lucky as hell to be getting a mentor and help to get into medical school and everything. I don't know what to do anymore. My friends all feel just like they're there and are just dead liars. Who am I even kidding to claim these people as my best friends?? I feel so alone, independent, and so sad I wanna cry so bad but I'm holding in the tears because this is pointless to be crying over. Screw senior year, I'll just be alone and do stuff for my own good, getting my own scholarships, forget the rest. I'm done. My best friend...doesn't even seem like my best friend anymore, he's just there :/ Why am I paying him when he's my best friend? & when I'm one of his best friends? I hope I'm not the only one. Whatever.
Btw, have I mentioned that the assistant principle does not talk to me or say hi to me anymore? :/
I'm just so good at hiding the pain.
...."Wanting to wake up from this dreadful nightmare"