I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
NOTE**: I DO NOT OWN THE ICONS THAT ARE ON EACH OF MY POSTS, THE ICONS ARE CREDITED TO THEIR RIGHTFUL OWNERS, THANK YOU [CREDITS TO: K-pop Icons]
♥ Wednesday, August 11, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"Right now...I feel like the biggest failure on the face of this planet"
Tell me...what am I to do now? What should I do? I feel like I should just throw away all of this KPOP stuff...Basically asian stuff and the fantasies I've been having. Why can't I just live a normal life where not much is expected from me? I feel SO freakin' pressured..MORE THAN EVER. It's insane! I see my best friend soon making his way up to the top, he's already freakin' famous at school with his artwork and his dancing skills :/ Yet I'm still a nobody at the school...not gaining any attention for any of the successes I've done...I wanna do MORE than just this...What the hell am I supposed to do? I'm wanting fame more than EVER now...I guess I do want the attention that badly...it's just kinda embarassing when everyone around me is known and i'm like...THE unknown....WOW GREAT. Yeah I guess you can say a bit of jealousy plays a part in this too...Even the guy I like is amazingly popular for something....LOOKS WON'T GET ME ANYWHERE THIS TIME!! I'm hardly getting anywhere with my piano skills...My art...they're good but not GOOD ENOUGH! My knowledge and intelligence?! I'm still confused about that!!! It feels like I'm just not smart enough!!! IS THERE ANYTHING I CAN DO?!?!?! LIKE SERIOUSLY...I've NEVER been so lost in my entire fuckin' life!! There's nothing I feel like doing that will get me anywhere...it' frustrates me SOO MUCH. I'm just not good enough period :( I'm...not even good enough for you.....
I know we'll be friends unconditionally...but...that's as far as we'll go...