I'm pretty easy to get along with just as long as you don't mess with me or start stuff,
I can be shy, I hardly ever talk unless you're one of my best/good friends, you talk to me first, or if i know you. I can't seem to make up my mind about being with somebody, I feel bad about it, but it's complicated right now to even tell wth my relationship status is right now =/.
I really don't like people who discriminate and tell me
and others what to do, I may not be perfect, but I sure know what's wrong and what's right. I'm a "nerd" in school, im pretty competitive also so watch out! lol.
People can say & see that im pretty pessimistic which is probably true, I'm also a stubborn girl, I usually go with my own 'instincts' rather than others, I go to only my
close friends for advice, they are the ones that give me the strength, courage and inspiration I need to go on :) I don't like people who talk to me when they don't like
me, so if you don't like me, better not talk to me for that matter. Don't try to destroy my pride&dignity because its always going to be there, I gain a lot of courage &
confidence through inspiration, faith, & believing in myself, & I will be expecting people to try & get in my way but their attempts won't work. I'm not a baby anymore, & I won't be used or tricked by people. I do not like it when
people assume every asian is Chinese, or eat dogs & cats for that matter. Don't jack/copy my style or anything that I do because its better for both sides when people are simple & stick with
their own things rather than copying me. Life can be & basically is complicated, & I have my own complications, I believe to go through the obstacles myself & learn from
my own lessons in order to improve, & this sometimes affects the way I act around the people who surround me, which is why I get misjudged easily & this is just to let you people know.
My personality can be weird, but who isn't? I'm a hard worker (sometimes an over-achiever T_T), I can be selfish & stubborn, but
I enjoy making & meeting new friends, I'm the most fobbiest asian girl you will ever meet!! I love listening to music, I love drawing, & my hands are cold all the time,
but I'm very warm-hearted<3 :) trust me. I'm VERY into my culture and asian culture, I get offended real easily if you talk about races and etc. If you ask
me for my opinion about things, I WILL be honest, I am a very honest person & can keep secrets. But other than those
things, enjoy my blog, get to know me, add me on facebook :) Thanks for reading this long ass paragraph about me, loves ;]
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♥ Friday, August 20, 2010
My Complicate Life ♥
"I'm on my own...on a LONG journey ahead"
MAN. Are you kidding me?! School has been going by SO slow. NOT FAST. What are people talking about?! Maybe...it's because I'm stressing out too much by thinking of scholarships, beating people, the project's fair, the multi-cultural fair, the talent show, BLAH BLAH BLAH omg. Wth am I to do? This is sooo much harder than I had imagined or thought...I KNOW that this is JUST the beginning...it WILL get harder :/ MAN bring it on!!! URGHH. Why can't they just give us scholarships by doing it the easy way? Some people don't have time for that T___T I mean, I'm not trying ot make up excuses so that I won't do it, cause I WILL but...I mean...why can't we have scholarships for winning or being placed in the project's fair? Why can't we get money JUST THEN for having a passing ACT score? Why do we have to do the complicated way, sign up shit, then actually work on a complicated assignment to actually GET the money? Whatever lol.
Another thing that's bothering me...is my mom. Does she really have to overdo things like this just for her first daughter? (Which is NOT me) I have a half sister... I know she didn't live a good life etc etc and I love her to death but....seriously mom? Geez I know you care about her feelings but then again, it kinda HITS me in tha face! First she tells me that I have to hide most of my shit in my room when my sister comes over here, so that she won't feel bad because she didn't/doesn't have all the stuff that I have, then after one day of changing her wallpaper for her with a pic of me and my lil bro she asks me to change it so that just in case if my sister saw it she wouldn't be sad wtf, THEN last but not least, she has to "lie" to my sister on the phone about me probably not being able to make it to medical school so that she won't feel bad also. WHAT KIND OF BS IS THAT?! YOU TELL ME. Idk but THAT hurt me...I'm not saying shit till I can't take it anymore and then I'ma bring up to my dad. I mean, don't you think she's overdoing it? I'm STILL her daughter...I know she cares about me and stuff, but she just has to accept the lifestyle that my little brother and I have now. What difference does it make? It's not like we can turn back time for her to fix everything so that EVERY child she has will live the same, exact, luxurious lifestyle! You just can't! It won't work that way.