"I'll avenge myself"
The DSI competition has completely crushed all of my hopes and dreams. I still get haunted about it every now and then. It helps remind me of how much of a failure I was and how biased the university is. I don't even wanna go there anymore. I'll sound like a chicken if I refuse to go. I'm going there no matter what.
But the thing is, have they even read the survey that all of the students filled out before the students left, over the competition? I doubt it. They said they were going to consider reading at the recommendation letters and our entire packet to help them pick the finalists. I doubt they did that, because from how I know and see it, they just picked the people with the highest scores at the end of the day. So they lied.
I'm sure that at least 1/3 of the participants within the competition have put down the survey that they DID NOT feel that the competition was not fair, nor was it able to show off their skills, intelligence, capabilities and potential. You can't judge us in one day, especially what they had in store for us.
Honestly, I'm going to straight out say that that competition was dumb and the activities along with it were dumb as well.
& even I feel that typing about all this krap on my blog is a waste of my time, but I wanna express how I feel since I have time right now. I should be looking for other scholarships since the university won't offer me any money, soooo it's whatever. Everytime I even try to look at my email, I see stuff about scholarships and it just pisses me off. Like no one has ever pissed me off before. I hate it. Because I think back of how I failed the competition, and if I'm not good enough for that to even earn $10,000, I then start doubting myself and doubting what I'm capable of doing!
So let me start:
With the first activity, we were split into different classrooms and there were about 7-8 people in each classroom. There's 3 judges and they're supposed to be asking you questions and they'll score you as to how you answer them. Although, there are rules. We CANNOT repeat/say what people before you have already said, and we got 2 minutes to answer the question. Which (I think) included thinking time.
So the judges asked us different questions like: What are the qualities of a leadership? What do you think it takes to be a leader? ETC ETC.
& we answered in a certain order, and it was every other person.
So when the first question was asked, the first girl HAD 2 minutes to write down all of her thoughts. Later the following week, I was thinking to myself "How the hell did she get about 5 minutes to answer the damn question?" Unfair #1.
She then answered after writing all of her thoughts down for 2 minutes straight, and then said ALL of the things that I had in MY mind, so then I had to quickly think of other possible answers and explain those as well since I was next. Therefore, since I could not repeat all of the things she said, I only listed 2. Unfair #2.
(AND SHE WAS THE ONE THAT COUNTERED MY ANSWER & ALSO GAVE ME A DIRTY LOOK. WHAT THE HELL. HOW IMMATURE. HOW CAN YOU HAND SOMEONE LIKE THAT 10,000 BUCKS?!? You TRAZY)
With the 2nd activity, it was the same with the amount of people and the classrooms. Except this time, it was a group activity and we were all to discuss about the U.S. Government? <-- (What? Why?) It would've been easier if we talked about something else rather than politics. :/ Freakin' Americans and their politics.
But anyway, yeah, the 3-4 judges this time, just look at you and watch to see how you participate within the group and how you communicate and react & judge you from there.
FAIL. The topic was WAY too general to go into anymore detail, all the stuff I wanted to say was what everyone had already kept saying or said. Unfair #3.
And then afterwards, ....there were some people who kept going around shaking hands with the judges and other people including me...and I was like thinking in my head "If you really think this is going to get you $10,000 bucks then you're wrong, because once you do it, everyone can stand up and do the same damn thing you're doing so I guess that means we get 10,000 bucks too. I'm just trying to be reasonable like you."
Hahahahaha, but nope, I didn't stand up to shake hands with anyone because I thought the ENTIRE THING was BS. If I could point out flaws of this competition there would be MANY MANY things. I notice the flaws in everyone and in everything. Maybe not all of the flaws but I can see a lot.
I thought the competition was even more ridiculous when the writing activity we had to do was over how we showed leadership qualities in our group activity (2nd activity).
-RETAKE- If I was in charge of this competition, I would've made the writing essay: "Why do you think you deserve this scholarship?"
FAIL #2.
What the hell are we supposed to say when everyone else is doing the same freakin' thing? I would've had so much more to say if the question wasn't so dumb.
Do you really think you have improved DSI? Just changing top 25 to top 50 for the semi-finals doesn't change or do anything. All I can say is that you made sucha big mistake not recognizing such other great students from my school. Our high school is one of the top high schools in Wichita, you should know that. We all have bright and smart kids, which is what your university wants, but I guess not anymore. Sending out 310 letters in the mail? Yeah that's some great leadership quality right there. We don't wanna kill anymore trees then we already have. You send us letters in the mail saying 'congrats for making it this far' and most of us will say 'congrats for wasting our time' Also, stop trying to bribe us with your lame deals "graduate early and we'll give you this and that" omg get a life, we all have lives, and we worked hella hard to make it to DSI and participate in it and all we got was a freakin' letter in the mail, reminding us that we failed, and that if we graduate early, they'll give us money, WTH it's COLLEGE, don't do that bribing shit. & they said that based upon our grades and academic achievement they'll consider offering us money, when is that going to be? After we graduate from college? We'll see about that. They're starting to sound like some lying cheap-ass rip-ff advertisers on TV. It's pissing me off. I should be enjoying my senior year, but yet some college goes and ruins it for me.
